'One minute i'm a little sweetheart, and the next you are an absolute creep.'

Into a plastic rainbow
And I have left myself to hang
In a halloween sky.

I let you tattoo a frown
Onto a face of white snow
Now I see footprints of a man
Running through my eyes.

Do I despise these perfect lies
I tell myself each night and day
Go kiss by blackened heart goodbye
I'm running out of things to play.

Hey, see I need to forget
That I've become a plastic rainbow
And I'm melting in the sun
And I have fallen from the sky
In a million multi-coloured lies.'

You said we were like sid and nancy.
sidkillednancy.
and in a way: You have killed me.
Enjoy the irony.
I cried all night while you stared serenely at the ceiling.
'Why are you different now'
'I've got you now, I don't need to impress you.'
Yet again I was seen as a pick me up, an object.
With no use but for the mechanical things, doing errands for you, someone for you to fuck.


I've Never Felt So Alive, Or So Dead♥

'Forever in control.'
'I'm always in control.'

What a nice damaging flavour of the month you have been;
ROT.


Unlike the others, I shout obscenties back. This is it without the violence, I feel my mouth saying things it would never say 'its not like this all the time'.
I could see myself changing, being moulded.
I am not a little character.
The fact I found out you were capable made me leave, capable of hurting me.
You have ground all confidence I had before into an organic, messy pulp.
Thankyou for making me realise that I was better than this.